KENDALL WA
EL GUAPO (2018)
This is dedicated to my grandad. I wrote this whole thing one Monday morning at like 4am cause I couldn't sleep. I sent em to Pinar who is on almost every song cause she's amazing. The topics are black identity, nationalism, mental health, AMOR, and overall madness. That's all, enjoi!
Baked
How does it feel/
is it real has it sunk in have you reeled/
by the dawn's early light/
still/
does it appeal/
does it have mass appeal this mass effect/
have you Shepherd the Hurd/
have you heard the word/
by the dawn's early light/
have you been affected by this recent white flight/
this brand new black plight/
which ain’t even new right/
does it mess with your psyche
are you at all ready to die/
will you share a piece of that conspiracy pie/
will you lye/
w the devil w his friends till the end/
Is your world cursed do you rue birth/
do you have a hint that it wasn’t worth/
are your bills stacked is this just a fact/
another check mark of life scratched/
if the world flat/
sign me up to get pushed off the edge/
If the world round/
got dammit maybe I’ll drown/
is this our town/
or are we renting it now/
when I die will mi kids get mi debt/
will they stress like I stressed
maybe more maybe less/
is the world fake are we all played/
is this Sega Génesis of our day/
if you can explain then this is the take away/
Ima be like apple pie getting baked aye/
I know that I know that you seen too much/
and I feel that we have been too clutch/
3 puffs 2 drinks 1 swallow/
I follow every gargle/
w freedom w freedom/
lord take me to your kingdom/
Original Wide Boy
Hit em on the phone he’s on roam watch him trek the globe/
not a man owed has his own this whole ting his home/
some say he bold but I dunno this is normal life/
just cuz most live like pussys don’t mean he should too/
roof removed coup smooth/
duuuuude/
leave pockmarks from throwing darts/
used to throw spears it’s all relative here/
turn into slave now this is the day/
payback is made no wonder they hate/
today’s the day/
He’s the original wide boy a bad boy/
bring the noise this moment is my choice/
and my voice loud even in silence/
you should try it he never dying/
Drug deal what’s real thus steel/
bust grills leave blood spilled/
nuff deals sniff scratch unreal/
snuff films from here to Colombia fields/
no mo' gotta be a better way/
turn the page but keep slipping in the book/
chapter after chapter take a second look/
volume after volume added to the nook/
a damn crook/
just tryna buy food/
these coppers eye me like I’m making IUD/
don’t need visine to see that you shan’t sneeze/
at things I sling n places I be/
don’t need ID everybody know me/
He’s the original wide boy a bad boy/
bring the noise this moment is my choice/
and my voice loud even in silence/
you should try it he never dying/
Know your rights boy/
to protest you have the rights boy/
to stand for something or die boy/
whether black brown or white boy/
not a single race right boy/
did you try boy surprise boy/
we made a better life boy/
don’t gotta answer to why boy/
we strive boy never die boy/
when we perish heavens will cry boy/
what u strive for boy/
cut the jive boy/
eff a piece we take the whole pie boy/
right boy wide boy/
He’s the original wide boy a bad boy/
bring the noise this moment is my choice/
and my voice loud even in silence/
you should try it he never dying/
Master Say
I feel like Kunta in Punta Cana/
only I could be in paradise n be a fly on the wall/
I stall I kid nah/
can’t even fix mi jaw to tell a lie/
I jelled w the populous listened to Nastradamus/
who predicted there’d be nada but slavery in mi future/
go punch a clock/
take a quick lunch n punch it again it’s non stop/
fund the dreams that’ll never come to fruition/
all this is is another partition/
it’s cyberpunk the world that I’m living/
nada but Blade Runner like AI every Thanksgiving/
I’m forced to swallow a lie and praise for some men/
who stole from some men n then repeat n rinse/
mi head is too dense mi girl is too thick/
mi World is a mess I’m throwing a fit/
Did master say are we good enuff/
was máster mad when we stood up/
was master pleased w our screw up/
is master ight that we blew up/
I took the high road but lo n behold/
he’s so wrathful n shameful/
no no
In a New York minute I could split it like an atom/
yea the world I have lived in is nada but pre Kenny conditioning/
wait until the 1st quarter starts n I hit u w the wind sprints/
leaving bitches breathless like where he headed/
2nd quarter comes yo vengo/
looking for a linda macarina who could tengo/
everybody muerto Grim Fandango/
day of the dead giving bread getting head/
tres cuarto here and I’ll be screaming at mi lungs/
letting all mi souljas hear don’t give up/
an earful of Kenny could lead to a helluva life/
achieving one's dreams and reaching the light/
4th quarter counts down never touch the ground/
I’m in super saiyan mode ET calm down/
pull us from the ghetto and we never looking back/
pack yo pens n pencils grab the book bag/
Did master say are we good enuff/
was máster mad when we stood up/
was master pleased w our screw up/
is master ight that we blew up/
I took the high road but lo n behold/
he’s so wrathful n shameful/
no no
They tell you work get a job any job/
bend over backwards break your back it’s your job/
try to protest but can’t take the day off/
health insurance cancelled if you try n call off/
you gon call they bluff tough/
you’ll be replaced in a minute someone will work cheaper/
someone will cross the picket lines so much for unions/
people gotta eat how is there confusion/
lots of hot air we could power wind mills/
master dangling carrots while we in a treadmill/
tryna tread water but he says sit still/
started at your ankles now debt at your neck/
swimming w sharks in suits/
the rooster fled the coop you shoulda went out too/
it cost too much to ask for change/
that’s why decade after decade it’s the same/
Aye master should I go a lil faster/
is mi work up to par or do I need some more ass kissing/
Aye master should I go a lil faster/
is mi work up to par or do I need some more ass kissing/
Liberty
They put the guns in the street/
told you and me to kill each other/
forget our mothers forget our brothers/
end one another/
fight for land and blocks of sand/
that fade in our grasp/
the rich get richer the poor look dumber/
Who wants to work hard/
will someone anyone raise they hand/
who wants this green card/
will everyone fight to death/
this club is exclusive and far from permanent/
so if you get a seat at the dining table don’t u trip/
I seen those working their fat lips and get all taken in a click/
perfect balance thou giveth thou taketh thou has it/
when looking over your shoulder
is no longer something you think about and becomes habit/
you’ll understand why we get the urge to snatch it/
They put the guns in the street/
told you and me to kill each other/
forget our mothers forget our brothers/
end one another/
fight for land and blocks of sand/
that fade in our grasp/
the rich get richer the poor look dumber/
Whose down w the community/
what are we seeking/
whose ok w not having immunity/
what are we seeing/
the future unfold to the present what a present/
this is our land/
how could you let em force us outta here/
viva la vida vivir mi vida/
we used to swing from trees now we/
have firmly planted roots n seed/
we used to get forced into camps the conditions were cramped/
damped led to death/
we will no longer hold our breath/
our lungs are filled w tear gas we won’t run from that shit/
puff puff pass it/
this is magic far from tragic/
They put the guns in the street/
told you and me to kill each other/
forget our mothers forget our brothers/
end one another/
fight for land and blocks of sand/
that fade in our grasp/
the rich get richer the poor look dumber/
Life is a dream for those who can afford to do that/
life is a burden the rest of us carry past death/
our kids inherit our debt and fall back/
this fallout is all out it’s raining ashes check/
mi blood starts to curl n heat up/
could this demonstration speed up warm the tea cup/
we gon be here forever you hear us never/
we’ll march we’ll riot we’ll flip cars wanna try it/
freedoms trapped in litigation we won’t buy it/
while y’all getting richer n richer we here to pry it/
out your cold dead hands if it comes to it/
turning the other cheek is no longer an option/
They put the guns in the street/
told you and me to kill each other/
forget our mothers forget our brothers/
end one another/
fight for land and blocks of sand/
that fade in our grasp/
the rich get richer the poor look dumber/
Sound of Blackness
See the thing about blackness/
starts w overreacting or under reacting however u tackle it/
now being black is IN/
everyone claims to be woke but honestly dunno where to begin shit/
I see a bastardization of my own culture/
by not only white vultures but folk who look darker than me/
say cheese to the modern black face and deifying/
those who were told carry the torch from the slaves/
now nah nah I’m not naive getting up there in age/
only in my 20s but see that’s the thing/
how much longer can I walk around blind willingly/
while they force us to coon to make a living/
if we more like the Hispanics we say dammit/
grow our own make our own
sell our stuff keep the money inside/
let hip hop turn into modern day rock/
which is just pop all this flip flop/
so we debate bout people who would turn around n sell your own damn culture/
ain’t that great/
What about the meat n potato’s the gravy the ladle/
the pigs feet the collar greens the chitterlings black eye peas/
everything that master said was for u n me/
the pork butt followed by more whippings/
if Jews can keep making Holocaust movies/
we gotta keep this alive my people have died/
came on creeky boats then told they can’t vote/
or drink out the same fountains or attend the same schools/
your books are outdated your internet is slow/
the liquor on every corner they tryna keep us slow/
but oh what do ya know they parade ya favorites in ya faces/
give em something to peddle to empty your savings/
the shits crazy baby look what they made me/
lord save me from this insanity
oh Christianity is no longerin/
so Christian Dior save me from this then/
I don’t mean to barge in n start this/
armistice race n pretend it’s not nonsense/
I been convicted n gifted ridiculousness/
we try to change our lives w the swiftness/
but unfortunately we told no mo/
can’t go home folks on our side just fold/
mi heart been swole mi chest been weak/
I feel I have peaked but see it’s still bleak/
children going hungry parents can’t get a break/
mi heartbreaks mi headaches/
I searched for a space but constantly faced/
with the realization that aye this just may not be my day/
but wait wipe off the mud and clear out your lungs/
praise yourself shorty conquer w love/
tomorrows a better day tonight’s a great night/
never go out without a fight/
iron willed like mike take you another bite/
we gon make it out this plight/
Madness
Madness/
throwing tantrums panics out the cabinet/
madness/
leads to stress pain n sadness/
the madness/
overwhelms but it sure sells/
the madness/it’s magic/
July was cold their body had froze/
nobody knows/
hidden under creaky floors/
like the Jews during the war/
should I love you no more/
mi pulse quit you made sure/
infinity pieces it was torn/
peep the scars I’m shorn/
warm/
kept her outstretched like a veteran of teen porn/
who wants more tú quieres to careless/
n scare me till their hairless/
watch mi body recede/
like LeBron's widows peak/
if mi n mi widow ever meet/
in the afterlife I will be no longer turning cheeks/
Madness/
throwing tantrums panics out the cabinet/
madness/
leads to stress pain n sadness/
the madness/
overwhelms but it sure sells/
the madness/it’s magic/
July was cold their body had froze/
nobody knows/
where the electricity went/
or how the days were spent/
how many pints of blood lent/
how many might run from the scent/
how many descent/
n don’t have the common decency to repent/
hint hint hint hint hint/
this couldn’t be put together better w a splint/
this couldn’t be gained by fasting during lint/
your life’s fucked n bent/
I hit the pub till 10/
stumbling south of Croydon/
the graves been loud so till the noise end/
come in n shiver a bit/
Madness/
throwing tantrums panics out the cabinet/
madness/
leads to stress pain n sadness/
the madness/
overwhelms but it sure sells/
the madness/it’s magic/
July was cold their body had froze/
turn the heater on ho/
Santa clause tried to come down the chimney/
thinking it was December 24/
what we got to be happy about/
we been moping around every word got us scrapping loud/
it’s just an excuse to act out/
some people luv to scrap so bap bap bap/
is this a baptism or an exorcism/
is there a reason that my heads spinning/
take me back to Christmas 98/
or 1997s Thanksgiving/
the turkey wasn’t cooked that’s why you didn’t wake up/
this family needed a shake up/
what you thought this was a democracy/
this hypocrisy is just Tuesday to me/
Madness/
throwing tantrums panics out the cabinet/
madness/
leads to stress pain n sadness/
the madness/
overwhelms but it sure sells/
the madness/
it’s magic/
Calicito
Oh Amy you slay me/
I should call you grace you amazing/
by the dusk's late nite I brought the tusk on the flight/
I’m the elephant in el quarto/
mi cuerpo had too much of an earful/
it’s no longer suspenseful tired of your info/
I moved cross country to get away from you/
you pull me right back is it fate to you/
I was too young when we hooked up but I looked you up cuz someone said/
I reminded them of you lil did I know/
I had your DNA in me no matter where I go
it’s all love from from here to death row/
but my intention ain’t to chill in San Quentin/
just hit London and cop these Joe Fenton’s/
bring em back to the coast I was born/
teach the hood open my own Sarbonne/
Calicito tu eres bonito/
cruisin' down Crenshaw cruisin' down Pico/
Fuck the specifics we in the Pacific/
no part of me ever knew it could be this terrific/
when you children you wanna leave n explore the world/
when you adult you just wanna find Home/
somewhere in between you chasing a dream/
you conquer the dream or run outta steam/
you let it rain then you crank up the heat/
you fill your dreams n create more steam/
your eyes gleam n people hate on your scheme/
you taste a lil success become a fiend/
you find a new home but your old one you never outgrow/
everyone who’ll listen you tell em bout it yo/
you tell em bout how yo moms n your pops weren’t together/
n you went to visit him in the desert/
memories are fonder in your mind/
que linda even when you’re blind/
you hop the train you hop the plane you see yo babe/
you say aye it’s been awhile how’s the wave/
remove the durag our love never fade/
it’s just a part/
Calicito tu eres bonito/
cruisin' down Crenshaw cruisin' down Pico/
God said ima come home/
whether in a wooden box or willingly on mi own/
Sigo Mi Corazón
Sigo sigo sigo sigo/
allí él ir vamos/
yo creo aquí/
por favor perdón/
mi disculpa o/
tú culpa/
mi español es/
sexualidadies/
en San Juan yo tengo/
mucho mas bonitas es fuego/
puedes ver el mío?/
esto es mío eso es mío/
nosotros somos grandiosos/
veo con mis oídos oigo con mis ojos/
que??/
el mismo el mismo/
que??/
mas necesita porqué?/
Sigo mi corazón/
sigues mi ejemplo/
piensa que quieres estar sola/
mami chola
Te quiero sola por el noche/
el chiste/
te quiero sola por siempre/
exacto/
mi corazón explota cuando te veo/
un futuro es todo lo que quiero creo/
Parisian
I was in Montmartre became a martyr/
tryna barter beg my pardon all’s forgotten/
never that once I get back to America/
I’m never going back again or did I say that backwards/
I’m from a country where we ass backwards/
so when I get a chance to dip I wonder why I just don’t settle here/
it’s all for you it’s all for you/bitches got me Despicable call me Gru/
my boss change mi name he call me flu/
cuz I’m always sick guess it stick/
I just love these massive road trips w plastic ass chicks/
w cheekbones created a week ago/
n tits look like they pop in an instant/
like a bag o' popcorn I’ve sworn/
to be a trailblazer like Zeus/
one day be a great husband n dad like Ed/
but only after my ego has been fed/
only after Zed's really dead/
only after I wear thin mi street cred/
So I was thinking maybe this weekend/
a lil freaking/
no peeking/
am I peaking/
one stop on the metro would make you regret that escrow/
was it special/
was it ever real worth anything/
could you benefitted from a whole different team/
I coulda benefited from croissants on the scene/
I mean the sign I mean the Seine/
these swine these pigs have never lived/
that’s why they stunt on these kids/
economy 2nd class/
in the air I’m even looked down on/
maybe that’s why they wanna go to Mars/
let the upper class live there away from harm/
Champ Elysee was elusive/
and now it’s another day so conducive/
to the work environment you always wanted/
love I’m American I’m always haunted/
descended from slaves of course I’m flaunting/
back in the day they made us taunt and/
fight each other for scraps and bad women/
and they wonder how I got conditioned/
We fought for this, parlez vous/
What’s it about, all I see is words outta yo mouth/
There’s gotta be a reason you came/
Are you done chasing fame/
London England on the Thames/
pouring rain on mi suede Timbs/
an argument let’s do it again/
never felt this alive when not in Brixton/
Paris France gave it a chance/
must be a reason all these Africans/
call it su casa call it a spade/
let’s immigrate call it a day/
suicide bombings it’s a way of life/
scare tactics to keep us from the light/
the whole world insane might as well pick my way/
right as Theresa May hahahaha/
freedom of speech if you behave/
in a America we got the freedom to hate/
to take Nazi flags and give it a wave/
burn a cross on your neighbors lawn to say hey/
a baguette here a baguette there/
a cafe here it’s like musical chairs/
now move around now now move around now/
move around now move around now
sometimes I feel like Nancy Botwin
n I got nothing but weed and skeletons in mi closet/
guess it’s time to drop it/
Keep On
Ma said I had the world in mi palm that’s if I wanted it/
you work hard at only your charm you won’t get very far/
she said to love yourself cuz them others be so flaky child/
don’t let em say you too wild just be yourself now/
open to new experiences keep yo head on yo shoulder/
don’t act like you know everything cuz you will never hold up/
keep an open mind all the time n don’t give up yo grind/
hustle till you die just try don’t get knocked off yo stride/
Not so fast don’t you quit on me/
your life just gotta new lease you get to keep/
every renewed heartbeat is a new peak/
Keep on keep on keep on you ain't weak
Clap once for ya mami clap twice for ya papi dalé/
it rained all day maybe that’s how they emotions got all soggy/
I can see thru any weather torrential rain or foggy/
time to bang bang screw every thang thang
no here goes mi apology/
stop that forecast stuff quit following fake astrology/
you without me cornflake without milk how’s that for analogy/
thinking w mi wrong brain lately has been mi own fallacy/
it had to be me couldn’t be anyone else/
Not so fast don’t you quit on me/
your life just gotta new lease you get to keep/
every renewed heartbeat is a new peak/
Keep on keep on keep on you ain't weak
When you scared of life n think you can’t go any further/
when frankly you contemplate suicide n murder/
gotta reach out seek some help seek some help w purpose/
never know who else going thru it share that weight that burden/
when you low down n feel life needs to slow down/
where to go now well what goes around/
success will come beat yo drum live on/
you can’t be wrong this time you’re the one/
Not so fast don’t you quit on me/
your life just gotta new lease you get to keep/
every renewed heartbeat is a new peak/
Keep on keep on keep on you ain't weak